I woke up in the morning, humid small rent room always smell nice after heavy rain. Stretch a bit then try to move my foot. This Saturday I only had one class, that means class finish at 10 AM, my school changed the schedule so we had to study at lab, my favorite class. Turn off my alarm, look out of my window I left open at night. My desk always look disorganized but who cares, it always end up like that, so many water bottle under the desk. I forgot to throw out the trash, maybe tonight. I sit at the "hard" bed, and read my note yesterday at the wall, what I've to do this day. My jacket still hanging for a couple year with couple chocolate candy that my crush gave to me inside it's left pocket. I should eat it before expired. The glass at my wardrobe already broken, I'm closed the door too hard when I'm angry. My perfume above wardrobe but I never use it anyway. I nee to take a shower, sometime I need to queuing to use bathroom, share with my neighbor. But today is my lucky day, no one around bathroom.

I'm so happy this day, I'm gonna see my crush. I'm kind of shy kid who staring at a girl from a distance. Call me weak, stupid, but I just can't flirt. Sometimes I wonder how my friend be able to  tease and joke with his girlfriend, and I'm here staring like a stone. Don't dare to say that's cute, that thing only apply on good looking guy, and you're right, I'm ugly af. Closed my rent room door, start walking to school.

It's a bit weird today. The sky look dark grey make the only color that exist is black and white. Everything look like an old tv show, just black and white. I'm the only human at the street, what a day, the street is totally empty. Not even a single human at the road. It's main road, almost everyday full of vehicle day and night, but this morning, only me, must be lucky day. I kept walking, and every store beside the road is closed.

It's a bit weird but who cares, I'm gonna see my friends, my classmate. A great friends for 3 years, in the same class. Laugh, play, study together. I will never forget this togetherness. I believe this day will be good day at lab.  I really like study at lab because it's just feel so free. You don't have to sit and listen, but you can do something on your own.

Start entering my school gate, wide open but no one. Start to walking at my class lab, I didn't see anyone at school. School lab's door wide open, must be somebody there. Start to looking around lab but I just didn't see anyone. Just no one in there, even in the bathroom. Am I too early ?. So I decided to waiting my friend in front of the door. Sky bit darker, make everything seem dark grey. Its should be 6:30 AM, It's look like already 6 PM.

It's already 7:00 AM, is this kind of joke ?. I'm sure its not holiday. Every classroom wide open, even canteen providing fresh snacks and food, but why no one here. I'm walking around one more time, library, teacher's office, sports field, it's empty school. Back to my class lab, and waiting there. I keep waiting and the sky keep getting darker. I keep standing in front of lab, waiting my friend to show up, but they didn't. And now, it's like a mid night. Everything just pitch black, so dark, and I just keep waiting.

I started to worried, sad, and ... I ... I ... feel ... so alone.

At this point I know where I am right now and I started to cry because I realize someday, I will be alone, lost everything and everyone I loved. Nothing survive against the time, nothing last forever. I recall when I lost my childhood friend, couple years later I dreamed about him. In that dream, I asked him about how it's feel to be past away and what do you doing after that, what's the right religion. He just smile, not answering my question. I always want to know, but maybe I'm gonna find myself someday.

I woke up in tears. I graduated couple years ago.